Brand new year, people making resolutions and I got 1 request...
"Anybody who can change your atmosphere has power over you, forgive em." People do not realize the depth of that quote and its sad to think that people will be living with the same routine this year.
My request is that you all practice forgiveness. The bible says God forgives those who forgive others...forgive yourself, forgive others, forgive those people whom you claim got nothing on you yet they make you sour when they come around you.
Let the past be behind you, allow the peace of God to help you forgive yourself 1st so that you'll be able to forgive others... Dare I say welcome to the new year..hell yeah!
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Saturday, December 24, 2011
matters of the heart
"Every woman is a little girl at heart, she's looking for the love of a father and if she has never experienced it, she cannot love you right [because she does not know how to]." Pretty heavy words, one might think right?
Well, I'm that little girl. I often find myself in situations where I shut my heart out completely to everyone because I feel as though they do not understand the void that's within me. I often don't know how to respond to people who show me affection because I've never received that affirmation from my biological father and its kinda sad at times because although the people might love/like me, I'm feel insulted by their interest in me.
Sometimes I feel like I should keep knocking on locked doors because only then I feel like I've made myself worthy of that persons love. Its like a guilty conscious I've got, in my head, I've convinced myself that if I do not work hard at making that person like me, I shouldn't have em to begin with.
One would swear I've got a twisted sense of loving but I don't know how to give what I've never received, I don't know how keep a man without worrying that he'll walk out and again I'd be convinced its my fault he left. I don't always know how to respond to overwhelming emotions of affection thus I require someone who will be patient enough to deal with my flaws...
Well, I'm that little girl. I often find myself in situations where I shut my heart out completely to everyone because I feel as though they do not understand the void that's within me. I often don't know how to respond to people who show me affection because I've never received that affirmation from my biological father and its kinda sad at times because although the people might love/like me, I'm feel insulted by their interest in me.
Sometimes I feel like I should keep knocking on locked doors because only then I feel like I've made myself worthy of that persons love. Its like a guilty conscious I've got, in my head, I've convinced myself that if I do not work hard at making that person like me, I shouldn't have em to begin with.
One would swear I've got a twisted sense of loving but I don't know how to give what I've never received, I don't know how keep a man without worrying that he'll walk out and again I'd be convinced its my fault he left. I don't always know how to respond to overwhelming emotions of affection thus I require someone who will be patient enough to deal with my flaws...
Monday, December 19, 2011
IBM
Naturally when an individual grows up, you realise that your perception is slightly clouded by your lack of exposure. I mean u grow up with this ideal partner in mind and throughout your life you look for nothing less or different from that which you had pictured typical right?
Well then news flash, ever wondered why you're still roaming around from 1 fling to another? Why it almost appears as though nobody is adequate enough for you? Its not even a matter of settling for less than what you deserve, it is the lack of option, you've got your head so far into this IBM that you neglect the fact that everyone has flaws.
You're looking for superficial individual who don't exist, be realistic, stop looking for love in all the wrong places, your "type" is keeping you single.
Well then news flash, ever wondered why you're still roaming around from 1 fling to another? Why it almost appears as though nobody is adequate enough for you? Its not even a matter of settling for less than what you deserve, it is the lack of option, you've got your head so far into this IBM that you neglect the fact that everyone has flaws.
You're looking for superficial individual who don't exist, be realistic, stop looking for love in all the wrong places, your "type" is keeping you single.
Friday, December 16, 2011
honesty is not always the best policy
Doesn't the truth make you feel small? I mean sometimes telling the truth is a bit of an inconvenience. Knowing it and being able to do anything about it makes you compromise just about everything you are yet you still feel compelled to keep it to yourself.
What good does the truth bring you if you can't put it to good use or any use at all?
What good does the truth bring you if you can't put it to good use or any use at all?
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
she means nothing to him
What's a woman to do with a man that don't want her right? I mean she's done it all to mend broken fences but he's unforgiving. He has become so bitter he can't even pin-point what is he's mad at to begin with.
She pokes, he responds; kind hearted but with caution. He claims to have moved on but even he knows that the one he's vibing with means nothing to him yet he pursues her to numb these bitter-sweet emotions.
She's more than willing to make the right decision for her and her ability to feel anything for anyone other than herself but she stalls, lingers and waits because she's confident that underneath that facade he's just as curious as she is.
Who's to say who's right and who's wrong. Who's to say he's even honest with her to begin with.
She pokes, he responds; kind hearted but with caution. He claims to have moved on but even he knows that the one he's vibing with means nothing to him yet he pursues her to numb these bitter-sweet emotions.
She's more than willing to make the right decision for her and her ability to feel anything for anyone other than herself but she stalls, lingers and waits because she's confident that underneath that facade he's just as curious as she is.
Who's to say who's right and who's wrong. Who's to say he's even honest with her to begin with.
Monday, December 12, 2011
happy ending
Read these most heart hitting quote earlier "you're chasing a happy ending you don't deserve" pretty heavy hey? I swear I felt the echo in my head hours later and well...they're still echoing.
Its so typical of us human being to walk around feeling like we deserve certain measures to be put in place for our fulfillment without working towards guaranteeing those measures. I mean everyone wants to be loved and wants someone to love they way they wanna be loved but nobody puts an effort into securing the kind of love they want.
How's your future wife/husband supposed to know how to love you the right way or love you at all when you don't give back the kinda loving they are willing to offer you. Its easy of us to assume the kinda roles we want our partners to take up but how are you assuring your partner that its a give and take typa arrangement?
Relationships ought to be inter-dependent. She/he needs to know its exclusively between the two you. If only 1 person carries the weight of the relationship, it is not love and none of yol deserve to even chase this "happy ending"
Its so typical of us human being to walk around feeling like we deserve certain measures to be put in place for our fulfillment without working towards guaranteeing those measures. I mean everyone wants to be loved and wants someone to love they way they wanna be loved but nobody puts an effort into securing the kind of love they want.
How's your future wife/husband supposed to know how to love you the right way or love you at all when you don't give back the kinda loving they are willing to offer you. Its easy of us to assume the kinda roles we want our partners to take up but how are you assuring your partner that its a give and take typa arrangement?
Relationships ought to be inter-dependent. She/he needs to know its exclusively between the two you. If only 1 person carries the weight of the relationship, it is not love and none of yol deserve to even chase this "happy ending"
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